Welcome to the grind!

I love this passage so much!

“Rise and shine.
6am and your hand can’t make it to the alarm clock before the voices in your head start telling you that it’s too early, too dark, and too cold to get out of a bed.
Aching muscles lie still in rebellion, pretending not to hear your brain commanding them to move
A legion of voices are shouting their unanimous permission for you to hit the snooze button and go back to dreamland, but you didn’t ask their opinion.
The voice you’ve chosen to listen to is one of defiance.
A voice that’s says there was a reason you set that alarm in the first place. So sit up, put your feet on the floor, and don’t look back because we’ve got work to do.
Welcome to The Grind!
For what is each day but a series of conflicts between the right way and the easy way, 10,000 streams fan out like a river delta before you, Each one promising the path of least resistance.
Thing is, you’re headed upstream.


Generosity, support and the end game!

It’s been a busy couple of weeks here at Beast Mode HQ, I’m creeping ever closer to my target of 120kg and it got me to thinking, now that I’m here, why stop? I only picked 120kg because it’s the upper weight limited for a Heavy Weight MMA fighter, it was the closest benchmark I had so I took it. Now that I’m a large bowel movement away from my target, I have decided to drop it to 100kg, another 20kg to lose. It makes sense for me to keep going, I have momentum and quite frankly from an aesthetic perspective I’m not there yet. I feel like I’m in a comfortable routine now with Operation Beastmode, this can only mean one thing, push harder! If I don’t keep pushing the limits and trying to test myself, I’ll simply fall into a mundane routine and will lose interest, gotta keep moving forward! Once I hit the 100kg target, the bulk of Operation Beast Mode will be over, that’s not to say I won’t ever stop improving and working on my fitness, but my main reason for becoming so public will essentially be over. I have decided that once I’m there, I will hand over the reigns to someone else, someone who like me, has had enough, someone who wants to make that change and really do something about it. The support the community has shown me has been stunning, so by passing on the torch to the next person it too can help them achieve their goals; I’ll address this further down the line.



I have been rather neglectful of late, the Facebook page has been the main battleground for updates and as such the site has been somewhat abandoned, I’ll try and make more of an effort to post up some info from time to time!

One thought I was having, was the idea of motivation, specifically finding motivation to exercise. Lots of people have said they wished they had some of my motivation, or if I could bottle and sell it I’d be rich, but in reality that’s not the case.

Here’s the big secret, I’m not motivated, I’m not driven to succeed; I don’t want to push myself to dizzy new peaks of physical perfection; the truth is I’m stubborn.

Do I want to get up at 7am in the pouring rain and howling wind for a run? Hell no! Do I want to go lift heavy stuff for an hour in the gym? Nope…do I want go to train BJJ? Well yes, yes I do actually but that last one is an anomaly!

However there is a force for more powerful than my dislike of physical activity, and that’s my stubbornness. I know I need to exercise, it simply has to happen for my continued results, if I don’t train, or perhaps contemplate missing a session, my inner dialogue kicks in, getting the guilt glands primed, preparing excuses and justifications for not training, but at the end of it all, my bloody mindedness kicks in, telling me to man up and get it done! I know that if I stop or slow down, I’m letting myself, my family, friends and the wee community on the Operation Beastmode Facebook Page down, my stubborn streak makes sure that even though I don’t want to do it, I must. Conditioning your brain this way took a while to be honest, it’s almost like cutting down on the thought process for preparing to train. Instead of sitting on the couch, thinking you have to get up, get changed, get your gear on, plan your route, throw in continued reasons why sitting on the couch is the justifiable option, simply stand up, don’t think about it, do it! Once your up just go, stop thinking, start doing!

Here is an actual example. Last week I was lying in my bed, my 0630hrs alarm went off to wake me for my morning run, it was cold and raining, I lay there enjoying the warmth and comfort of my bed, the excuses started to creep in, “I’ll do an extra few miles the rest of the week”, I was starting to talk myself out of, the other reasons then started to flood in and to be honest some of them sounded pretty good; then simply because I knew what was happening I got the hell out of bed, stuck on my running gear and left the house all in the space of 10 minutes. I simply switched my brain off, let my body engage and away I went.

So next time you’re sitting there, making excuses not to train, simply let your inner stubborn mule come out, stop thinking of excuses, stand up and take the first step, because nobody else is going to do it for you!

It’s been a while!

Aye it’s been a while since I last updated the blog, most if not all updates are up on the Facebook page these days.

I’m now into week 15, I was last weighed on Monday (27th May 2013) and I have lost a total of 27kg, which is 4 Stone 3.5lbs. While I feel proud of what I have lost so far, it’s only just over my half way point.

Most overweight people would be delighted to lose over 4 stone, I however have at least another 3.5 to go; it’s really puts things into perspective of how bad I actually let things become over the past 10 years.

One of the hardest parts as I mentioned before is the mental aspect of what I’m doing. I think a key part of it all, is being able to visualise your success; I don’t mean that in a cheesy motivational speaker kind of way, I mean that in a very basic way.
When you lose weight, you’ll see differences,  you’ll see numbers on the scales drop but sometimes it isn’t enough to keep you motivated. It’s only when you physically see how much weight you have lost does it really sink in. On my first weigh in Spike handed me a 5kg medicine ball, it was slightly less than I had lost at that point, even just holding it and feeling the weight really drove home the point for me, it might not sound much but when it’s there in your hands it becomes very real.

Feedback and support from everyone has been amazing, it’s so nice when people send me messages asking for MY advice! I think the key thing is, you have to be ready to commit; you have to have it in your mind that you’re gonna push on and do it. I had tried in the past with varying levels of success, but as Spike says I clearly wasn’t ready. What did it for me, what pushed me over the edge was one day I went a walk with Becky & Jack, less that 200m down the street my back was killing me, I couldn’t even take a walk with the family without crippling back pain; that’s when I sent Spike a message asking for advice, he very VERY generously went 100 steps further and here I am today.

Don’t get me wrong, I still have a long way to go to reach my target, but when you realise that when you hit your target it’s not the end of the journey, it’s only the start of a lifelong change. I have learned to embrace and love a healthier lifestyle and I’m NEVER going back!

What a difference 6 weeks make!

This morning we had a nice leisurely 3.5 mile jaunt around town finishing off with some pad work at the gym. It was a nice change of pace and nice to punch hell out of the pads for a while, get my upper body working a wee bit!

The main thing today was the realisation how much I have changed, physically yes a little bit, but mentally the change has been pretty big.

When I got home Becky asked how far we had gone, I answered “Only 3.5 miles.” ONLY 3.5 miles? 6 weeks ago I would have taken the car and driven the whole 1/2 mile to ASDA! This has been the biggest change, my attitude. I think nothing of heading out for a 5.5 mile session round Elgin; in fact the other night I found myself up by the Buccaneer Garage while out and about for a walk. The old me would have been horribly negative about the fact I would have had to walk about a mile and a half to get home, but the new me not only couldn’t care less, but wanted to push further and further.

This whole getting fit really is a mental game, I would say easily 75% mental 25% physical. Everything I do is governed by my mental attitude, when my body physically hurts, it’s my brain that’s telling me to grow a set and keep going, it’s my positive attitude that’s pushing me forward, not the fact that I find it physically easy. I still have to work within the physical constraints of my body of course, so I do sometimes have to reign myself in and remind myself that if I push too hard I’ll do myself a mischief.

Week 6 done!

Well that’s the 3rd weigh in done and dusted, while I’m a little disappointed that it was only 2.7Kg I’m happy it’s still going in the right direction!

I feel like I’m finding my stride now with getting out there and exercising, so now it’s time to look at my diet. My diet isn’t bad, just not very consistent; so starting this week I’m going very strict portions and food types. Minimal carbs no later than 12 noon, no bread, no cheese, no milk and no sugar. I have been eating the aforementioned treats in sensible portions over the past 6 weeks, however it’s time to stamp them out until I’m at a weight I’m happy with.

Week 6 Weigh in results


What did surprise me was that I have lost 12.3Kg so far, that’s 1lb from 2 stone so that was a nice boost! it’s nice to see the above graph (get your own one here!) going down the way, while it’s not dropping like a lead balloon it is dropping so I’m pretty happy that I’m doing this as a sustainable pace.

Talk about sustainability, I have noticed that my knees and ankles seem to be easing up a little, I still get the odd shooting pain in my feet/ankles at times, and my knees are a wee bit stiff when I get going but all in all I’m seeing an improvement. I’m not sure if that’s down to repeated joint exercise or the supplements I’m taking on a daily basis:

1 Cod liver oil
1 Vitamin D3
Glucosamine HCL & Chondroitin
4 (2 morning, 2 evening)Alpha Men

(From MyProtien.com, remember to use my code MP18675994 🙂 )

I suppose only time will tell, the more weight I lose the easier my joints should find it!